im in a sick twisted place..

and i know its unhealthy but it feels better to be here than to leave...

trust me..

its hard... and ive been crying for 12 hours now... and it wont stop.

*sigh*

life gets a little tricky here and there and this is one of those very very stressful times. mike is out with his mom to pay for the phone bill. opie is next to me asleep and my tummy is bloated. ive been vomiting this morning and  emotional.

i need a get away. i need to have some fresh air with out mike. i love him. but i need some space to breathe. i know it would do us both some good. blahhh. \

andy (from high school- i missed him so much!he was my bestie!) and mike have hit it off really well. andy has been depressed- and so has mike but yesterday they were both so happy(: it was nice to see my boys having fun.

well... today is one of those days. ill check back in with more later.

new year! (:

and im livin with the mikeyyy(: things are getting good! this year we are
- therapy for us BOTH. as well as anger management.
- going to school
- working
- buying a car together (:

im excited for it all ! we have had rough patches so far... but they are being worked on. anger is DEF mike's biggest problem. however he aksed to do anger management as long as he didnt have to go alone. i love him and am GLAD to go.

christmas was good. mike was excited about all the stuff he got and had the BIGGEST smile ever. I had dinner at megans and had fun with her family!

this year is different. im living with mike now, like i said. and we are closer than ever. this whole thing has shown me he IS my forever. through it all.

im so lucky. and happy.