tired of playing this role.

It's that role of, "you're young, you're supposed to be free."

i mean- yeahh, i am happy free and single. though when it comes down to it... im lonely- i have several people im talking to- but none of them are what i truly want and need.

I want someone who can take control of me (in a non-abusive way). i want someone who wants to hold me and love me; someone who will go the distance no games, lies, or hidden agendas. I want someone honest and true- someone willing to settle down for awhile. Someone wanting to be with me..

i feel like i'll never find that one. I know i won't. i believe in love; just not sure i believe in it for myself. i'm not sure if i will ever have someone to hold me when i need it most.. i will never have someone. Sooner or later i need to tell my heart this cause i am tired of hoping and wishing for someone who does not exist for me.

It's sad cause; i KNOW im not a horrible person.. i think.. but it's like.. idk...

im ready.. i just wish my other half could come now.. it's getting cold in this bed.