but i know im not- i just wish i were. i have this other blog- thought its not reall a blog... just another place i feel safe.
on there i have become this idol.. they tell me they all wish they could be like me.. i feel bad.. caus i know in my heart that who they see... well.. its not me. i don't love who i am.. i wish to be someone different everyday.. but to give them hope.. i pretend i am.
i hate who i am. i cannot love. i can not e happy. i can not be content with who i am. i hate myself. though.. i want to love me.
i cry a lot. deep hard long sobs.
i don't know how to escape this pain.
i don't know how to love, feel emotion,.. anything.
i want to be saved.
i wish to be saved.
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