the beauty in it

good god- we have been at each others throats..

its me- its him, its us. and you know- no matter what we argue about we always make up. most of the time ppl think we are fighting but its just us communicating.

but we have been fighting and its annoying- its over stupid shit too. Idk- its weird cause we both have to be right, and we both want the last word. I've been working on me and he has started working on himself- i feel that we both need patience and the ability to move on.

but the beauty in it all is the fact that we can be open with one another- we can express our feelings without holding back. its the first time i've felt i could do that. I feel safe and happy. i love him with all of me- and that itself is a lot for me to say.... its not the 'oh i love you, youre my bf' its the Im in love- head over heals through the stars and over the moon. I cant wait till we can start our lives together. this is all new to me- this whole working at a relationship- giving and taking... but i love it. i do. i love him and more than anything, its real and its exciting.

ive never felt that i needed anyone- and i still dont... but i want him. i want him through the good- the bad- and the down right nasty, ugly, shit that happens. he is worth everything... including the conservative family that criticizes us- and runs us through the dirt.