happily ever after and the ring

for two weeks he has been hinting about asking me to marry him.. and tonight… he made me realize how serious he is. I love him so much (: he is the ONE for me. I know God sent him to me- ive been through so much in my life- and i feel that God has given me mike for all the struggle and hard work and taking care of everyone else.
mikey is my soul mate- best friend- lover- prince charming- my happily ever after (:
i love him. Next week he is proposing… im scared. but excited to wear  HIS ring.
call me crazy but this is everything.


If mikey gets me that ring i will feel like SHIT. complete and utter shit... I'd take it dont get me wrong... i LOVED that ring, its my dream ring... i just dont want him spending that kind of money on me.


I love him so much... and he told me tonight he was scared of what his dad will say.. he said he's scared of what his family will say... but he also told me he doesnt care.. he said he's ready for the next move- and honestly, i am too... its scarey as hell- but im so ready. He is the one for me and i know it. he is my sunshine in the abyss. i cant believe im saying this but im ready for our happily ever after(: