for a WEEK! (: YAY. i get some me time.
its looong over due. i love him- but this clingy shit he does is smothering me to death.. and making me resent him (at times)
i cant stand clingy. i cant stand him trying to be controlling. i cant stand his anger.
yet. he is in full denial.. even after hitting me.
im seriously fed up. hopefully this week will help me.
not only that- i had a miscariage.. i was two and a half months... and its gone.. he's so non-understanding about it... this gives me time to deal..
i told no one except mike and three bffs i was prego.. they were helping me through it all- and now that i lost it.. they feel like they lost it too.. and then there's mike... being a dick. ( id didnt even tell you cause i know there is someone i know reading these... i was scared to disappoint ppl i know.. and he didnt want family drama over it....
idk i have soooo may questions.. im so confused.. i have all these feelings.. and i cry... i just.. feel so sad now. idk what to do or how im supposed to feel or when its supposed to end...
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